Am I in love with my friend's husband?

[Michael]

You are looking for some rationalization for your behavior. You boink a bunch of guys because you can and you want to. And in the process put your marriage at risk as well as pregnancy and STD's.

Women tend to think of ways their virtue is less tarnished when they cheat. Tough times, is it love, we only did it four times, it meant nothing are common. Or the ever popular, 'my emotional needs are not being met." or "I was in a very vulnerable place before I boinked him those four times."

You have a husband and children. Get a grip! That is where your love should go. Your husband does the heavy lifting of a marriage relationship. This other guys gets the good stuff.

Then you write this nonsensical diatribe in an effort to do what? It's a bunch of crap.

You boinked them and it's over unless you are lining up some others. It;'s doubtful any of the fun guys wants you and your kids to show up on his doorstep.