Here's the deal guys I'm a fake?

[ashley]

I'm 15 years old and I've been up happy with myself from a very early age, 7. I was always bullied and called ugly, fat, stupid and who'd want to date you. Even this account is fake my names not Ashley but I always use fake names on here for privacy. I've faked people online for years facebook, youtube, imvu myspace, msn, myyearbook etc...
I always fake them pretty scene girls you know the perfect hair, skin, weight and height? yeah them. I get loads of attention being them off people my real profiles are all dead no one wants anything to do me but when i'm someone else it's like I forget I'm me and i'm actually them everyone loves me and thinks I am amazing. I fake guys too... :l I've always wanted to be a guy I do more "guy" things then "girl" things. The other day I made another fake guy account I even found this cute guys pictures to use and thought no one would find out , they did about an hour ago... turns out he had a youtube channel. I deactivated the account and looked at everyones comments on my real account some laughed and called the "guy" stupid and others stuck up for him even though they knew he was fake.. I know I can't go back on it now..

I still have a million fake accounts some I never use but they're out there, they're me... I've tried to stop but I can't I like the attention and compliments I get from these accounts, although they are going to the person I'm faking I like to think of them as going to me.

I'm shy in real life and I had a bad childhood and I still get bullied even though i'll be finishing school forever in about 6/5 months... When I'm these people I get confident I'm funny, cool, smart eveyone wants to be with me, but when I am me... no one wants to talk to me even if I act the same as the fakes it's still ignore her..

What do I do now ._. idk where to go