I feel so bad for how I'm treating my friend. What do I do :(?

[Colleen]

It sounds like some emotional issues are involved with the 2 of you.
A friend is not like a toy you can choose to pick up and play with, or leave it laying on the floor in the corner of the room. You may be her only friend, Be careful how you treat others.One single word or action can make or break someone. Especially if its someone you love. She must really care for you to still want to be your friend after the way you have treated her. She may have low self esteem. A friend is good to have when you have "issues". That's not the time to tune friends out. Perhaps you should set time aside to spend some time with her and tell her some of what you have said here on yahoo.You sound like you like her,but you are afraid of being around her at the same time..I hope you two work it out. True friends are few in a persons life. Be wise