I feel like I am going to become depressed again...?

[oruboris]

I wouldn't be in a hurry to get on the Zoloft: big pharma has convinced the medical world that all emotional problems are a matter of our brain chemistry, and it just isn't true.

Believe me: SSRIs can mess you up, big time. Been there, done that, won't ever do it again. Just like a bad program can screw up your computer, a bad medicine can leave you hopeless, angry and out of control. It doesn't 'give' you thoughts, it just messes with your emotions so you can't control your thoughts or actions very well. Suicide is a known, listed side effect of SSRIs in young people: even the drug companies admit this, so your dad needs to do some research before asking you to take the pills.

So what can you do instead? First, recognize that you have a lot going on, and deserve to feel a little bad about it: some of this is normal reaction to the bad stuff in your life. Don't become obsessed, though: worrying about losing high school friends while you are still with them will just cast a shadow on the rest of your senior year. You have to enjoy the moment while it lasts, and recognize that everyone has been through this. You'll keep the best of them [I'm still in touch with many, 30 years later] and you'll make new ones as life goes on-- it will be just fine.

Take care of yourself: sunshine, exercise, good nutrition including folic acid and omega 3. 5htp, Sam-E, and St. John's wort [900 mg.], if you like.

Don't over dramatize, there are healthier ways of getting the adrenaline we all crave. Don't worry about what can't be changed. Love yourself, be the kind of friend to yourself that you deserve: nurturing, honest, caring.