Overthinking sucks so bad...?

[Jezzy143]

I am often told I think to much. I can't help it. I also feel like I am never happy with my life. They say to be thankful for what you have and to feel blessed. I get on facebook and see the people that I graduated with and become very sad...and I guess jealous that they seem to have the perfect life. Like why do I feel like my life is so messy and not solid...and then there are others who seem to have everything. I know that everyone has a battle...but my gosh I wish I knew them so I felt like my life was normal. Because quite frankly...my life is a disorganized mess and I don't know how to get it the eff together. *sigh* So many things I think about doing with it.. I want a "susy homemaker" I want to be an independent adventurous woman.. I want to have an amazing love and best friend... but see no positive light on how to achieve these things. Or maybe I just don't have a want to... Blah. I guess I'm just venting.