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Should I runaway with my best friend?
12-09-2012, 10:43 PM
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Should I runaway with my best friend?
My question is simple: Should I run away? I'm a 14-year-old girl in NY. I'm physically healthy, though I've been on antidepressants for some time now. Things are getting a bit difficult for me. My dad is an alcoholic, we can barely afford bills and food, and my father only comes home a couple times every month. There's been times he has forgotten who I was. He has hit me before, and I don't doubt he'll do it again. I live in a very small town. My life at home and school is starting to feel unbearable. I've been planning to run away for months now, and have been researching it intently. Now, within the last three months, I started talking to this boy. He's 15, and his mom has taken him out of school a week ago to be homeschooled. Lately, he's the only person I've talked to, and according to anyone at school who has attempted to speak to him, he only responds to me. He's told me about his life at home, and I've witnessed it on webcam with him. His brother and father abuse him, and his mother only agrees with his brother, not really caring much for him. I've told him I loved him like a brother, and I actually have a small bit of a crush on him, though it's something I could easily get over. He's also told me he loved me, but he never specified in which way. He's also extremely healthy physically. We both experience severe suicidal thoughts. It scares the crap out of me whenever he tells me that he wants to die, because he's honestly the only thing I care for in life. I told him he has so much to live for, because honestly, he does. He's an extremely talented vocalist, and could probably make it as a singer. He's also smart, an honor role student, and a great chef. He's someone who would always talk to me, and had been the only person who actually makes my suicidal thoughts stop when I talk to him. I've hinted that I wanted to find an escape without ending my life. And a couple weeks ago, he said that we should run away together. I honestly want to. We've decided where we would go, and how we would get there. We both have some money, I have about $150, and he has $200. We would leave in the spring, when it's starting to get warmer. We've arranged with one of my old friends in the town we plan to go to (The town is about two states over) that we'd be able to shower at their house. I would dye my hair and get piercings, and he would too. (I've helped people pierce themselves before) We know how we'd make money, and are aware that we can't really get true jobs without birth certificates. I feel pretty sure of this decision, because it's a way to escape from the pain, without taking my own life. And if need be, we could always return. A little more about myself will do I guess. I'm bullied. I'm 5'1" in stature, and I'm 95 pounds. According to people who videochat me over oovoo, or look at my facebook pictures, I'm pretty in their opinion. I'm a straight-A student, my lowest average being in Health with a number of 95. More about my friend is that he's 5'8", 129 pounds, and an A/B grade student. He was always the popular kid, though he never has any real friends. He no longer goes to school, as I previously stated, his mom took him out. I'm pretty sure he cares about me, as one time I did end up in the hospital for overdose, he was my first visitor, before my father. He was crying, which is something he never does, and told me how he was trembling with his knife when he heard I was almost dead, telling me if I was dead, he was going to die too. So... should I leave this town with him?

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Should I runaway with my best friend? - Alicia - 12-09-2012 10:43 PM
[] - Aaron - 12-09-2012, 10:51 PM
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