Is anyone else like this?

[just keep smiling.]

I know a lot of times when someone has a crush on someone else.. they're always on their facebook page and what not. Well.. I'm the opposite. I'm scared to go on facebook, twitter, instagram, whatever because I'm scared I'll see something I don't want to see and it will ruin everything. I'm scared I'll see my crush with another girl and then I'll start overthinking everything. I don't know. I'm not really the jealous type but I overthink all the time.

Am I the only one? Just wondering if this is normal. :\ I guess part of it is from me being hurt in the past.