where do i fit in?how to not kill yourself if you cant take being a loner?

[Ms. Lady]

You need to find out what is causing you to feel this way and know that everyone is not out to judge you. I would consult a therapist and see if that will help. I think the key thing for you is to find alternative solutions to issues most people would deal with through their social contacts, you have to use your intelligence to implement your values. If you think you would succeed at something, don't be discouraged It's good to seek chances, but don't get fixated on the immediate benefits. Consider the effects on the rest of your life and make choices that will benefit you in the long run. Make it a habit to get up and out of the door and do things that you enjoy that the best advice that I can give you.
Best Wishes!!