When you love yourself do you get jealous less easily?

[why]

Right now I have really low self esteem, I hate myself, I hate the way I look especially!! So I'm really awkward and shy I have no friends because I'm too nervous to be around people because I don't want to be seen because I'm so damn ugly.

I see everyone else with their friends, laughing and having a good time with each other and posting pictures of things the do together on twitter instagram and facebook. And I get so jealous and feel suicidal because I hate my life.

I wish I could be confident like most people are...and actually have a social life. I'm so pathetic I hide in the restroom sometimes instead of going to class because I feel to ugly. I'm on probation because I don't go to school because I think I'm so ugly. I have bad social anxiety just because of my stupid looks!