I always end up stalking my crushes?

[Obi Wan Knievel]

Of course you're not a bad person. You just have normal crushes (if crushes can be called normal), and do what everyone else does.

If you were a truly bad person, you'd do stuff like killing mutual friends just so you could see him at the funerals. Or maybe pour gasoline on his legs and light him up, then tell him he can have some water but only if he asks you out first. But anything less than that, well OK almost anything, is perfectly harmless.

Crushes are called crushes for a reason, and that reason is because they're so damm heavy and powerful. They're not called squeezes or even difficult loads to carry, because that wouldn't properly describe the feeling. Nope, crush is the only word that can describe something like that.

You're perfectly normal. Go ahead and cyber-stalk all you want.