I am so hurt because of this. I feel like cutting and carving "Ugly" into my stomach...?

[Jasmine]

I am 18 years old. Just now on Facebook, this girl was playing the Inbox-me-a-number-and-I-will-tell-you-what-I've-heard-about-you game … Well, I decided to play and (my number was 1023).. She wrote, I've heard people pick on your forehead. That ruined my day. It's deformed a little and that made me hate myself a little more. I have been cutting on and off for 3 years and then, I feel like carving "Ugly" into my stomach or on some part of my body. I felt like nothing. I still feel like nothing. I can't handle this anymore. I always get picked on because I look different. People are so stupid these days! :'( I just feel numb all over. There was drama and I lost my best friend, I didn't get accepted to a college I applied for that I really wanted to go to, my family thinks I'm a failure in everything I do, I get compared to my brother who is straight As and THE perfect child,.. this is all too much and I can't TAKE it anymore. :'( I want to cut so bad right now. I don't know what to do. I found a gun in my Dad's drore .. I don't want to kill myself.. I just want to feel a lot of pain.. Somedays I DO want to but I'm too chicken to do it. :'/ I can't go on like this. I really can't. Help please? jasminenash79@yahoo.com