Apathetic towards life and very confused? What's wrong with me?

[Jody]

Apathy and depression go hand in hand.

Sometimes apathy is a result of feeling that you do not have the skill required to confront the challenge ahead. Or from perceiving no challenge at all, as in the challenge (to make friends) is irrelevant, or conversely they have "learned helplessness."

People often care but apathy is the result of social systems (like cliques) actively obstructing engagement and involvement (feeling friendless, defective and rejected over a long period of time); and social media that promotes beauty, glamour, wealth, thinness, health and popularity; and the many ways school, churches, clubs, and other organizations fail to invite others to participate. So you have to approach them, invite yourself. Sign up, join up, help people.

Your circumstances and attitude of resignation may be affectibng you more than you realize, it's just not you, it's them, but you need to start reaching out to poeple, letting them get to know you, you need a social group or hobby you can enjoy. There are thousands of hobbies that are solitary or include others. Find something you love.