I always feel alone, I hate myself, I role play on Facebook and I hardly talk to people in real life, help?

[Mel]

Wow. Okay well you've taken the first step in venting and let it all out so that's got to make you feel a little better I hope.

Your parents are an issue since they don't want you to role play but you feel that it's your only way of connecting with people so I think you should try talking to them properly and explain why it is important to you. Wouldn't it be better not to have to sneak around them?

As for finding love, you're young and have your whole life ahead of you. Meeting people online isn't the best thing because you can literally pretend to be anyone, especially on a role play page! As hard as it may be, I think you need to push yourself into going out and interacting with people a bit more so you have the chance to connect with someone properly. At your age, don't look for love online. If it happens that's great but you shouldn't invest all your hope and energy into that.

I don't know what form of autism you have but as my brother is autistic I do have somewhat of an understanding of how hard it can be when you are just that little bit different to the people you want to connect with. I think counseling would be beneficial for you, not only so you can talk to someone in person and vent but also because they may be able to help you rediscover how to meet people in the real world.

Don't hate yourself sweetheart. I've been there for so many years and I have to say we are all our own biggest critics. If you want to learn to draw better, practice! Watch tutorials or ask friends for advice. You could find some art groups and make another group of friends as you all try to improve together. If you have time, a part time job or some volunteer work would also be beneficial. What if you volunteer for a youth group? It might be a chance to mix with people your age.

If you take anything from what I've said, I hope it leads to you talking with your parents and maybe even letting them know how bad you're feeling. Let them help you.

Good luck!