I'm so lonely, I don't know where my life is going. I'm lost?

[ferochira]

Although this won't make you feel better personally, start by realizing most at your age with a steady mate, are feeling the "exact" same way. Not only will you find a lot of these confessions here, but i have 2 of the best looking girls/nieces from very well of family, with a ton of friends, most with fiances and steady bfs, that tell me the exact same thing, one of them turn 30 next wk and she's taking it extremely hard.
Women take this a whole lot worse than men, as in the past, you'll find most every high school girl here and everywhere else thinks she "HAS" to be married by 20-25 yrs old. It is my belief, that this centuries old belief is what actually screws up todays society and relationships. "look hard enough, and you'll find love in all the wrong ppl," they talk themselves into love, more than is there to start with, and refuse to believe the fact that nothing betters after marriage that wasn't there before it, in the majority of cases, weddings are in planning before couples have been together 2yrs, it why so many end up in abusive relationships. Could very well be your waiting for one of those women and all because she made a rushed and rash decision about a feeling called love, that was based on her teen experiences of what love was. And for those reasons the highest age category for divorce and seperation of long term relationships is mid 30's and under. One tatistic that's eerily right on if you pay any attention, is that the average marriage/long term relationship goes on the rocks around the 7yr mark.
Not one thing hasn't changed in the last 100 yrs, except that parents, mother in particular continue to pump their daughters with the idea of true love in early adulthood, continuous pushing for marriage and kids. Never once mentioning that it often takes longer, it can't be hurried, millions are waiting /looking, there's a time and place for all and one just can't change or hurry it.
I see your quite busy, but maybe you should try to find a few hrs a week to do some volunteer work, a chance to meet others in different lines of work, those working on college or University degree's or just ppl helping out, beating the bar, etc. scene. Just remember, "we pick and choose who we marry, not who we fall in love with." Widen your scope, get out of the box, open up to different possibilities.