I feel like a complete failure, help?

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Sounds like you live in Utah. There are a lot of depressed people living in Utah. If you don't fit the mold there, you will feel judged and inferior. Heck, even if you DO fit the mold you will still feel judged and inferior. That's just what Mormonism, and especially the Utah culture, does to people. My advice to you is to give up on life. No, I don't mean suicide. I mean change your life. Change where you live, change your goals, and change the fact that you seem to be trying to live up to everyone else's expectations, as dictated by the Brethren in Salt Lake City.

Go live your own life. Be happy with who you are. Stop comparing yourself to the impossible standards set by the old guys in the ivory tower in temple square.

Good luck!