Lonely but it's my own fault?

[Jasmine]

I used to be pretty popular a few years back and had a lot of friends, but I had to go through some stuff and was/am dealing with a lot of stress, anxiety and depression. Apparently I have PTSD, according to my psyciatrist. But anyway, over the years I kind of just stopped talking to people and answering texts and going to school.. But school aside. I didn't want to talk to people because they always came to me with their problems when I already had/have tons of my own problems and I can't be bothered to help somebody ells when icant even help myself. I never really felt lonely, but the past few months.. Idk. Mainly at night I feel lonely and start to cry, and my life already sucks. I tried to to go back to my old friends but being with them either makes me want to cry because their lives are so much better or because the relationship needs to much maintenance. I'm tired and feel like life is more work than it's worth.. Don't freak out, I'm not suicidal.. just lonely...