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why do i feel more complete than others? am i different?
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02-19-2014, 12:45 PM
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why do i feel more complete than others? am i different?
I am only 19 years old and i feel like i am going through an identity crisis. I have lived in three countries, i speak 5 languages and have friends all over the world. I draw, paint and write. I also read a lot. I have an acute passion for music and tbh i couldn't live without. In fact i have been playing the piano since i was 8. The problem is that i constantly seek meaning and coherence in life, which doesn't really make me such a happy person. This is partly why i have converted myself to buddhism and have become a vegetarian. For the same reason i have joined a poltical party where i am an engaged activist. I try to live in harmony with my ideals, but reality constantly disappoints me, asnot many try to do the same. I do not watch nor listen to any kind of brainswashing media, which ddoesn't leave me much to talk about the kids who spend their time gossiping about big brother or x factor. This does not mean that i do not enjoy having fun and enjoying the little pleasures life has to offer. I am actually lucky to have the capacity to'switch off' my mind sometimes, but most of the time i feel that others do not complement me as i would like them to do so. For instance i have never managed to fall in love, as all the relationships i have had were based on a physical criteria. I feel different, and i know that the difference that i embody shouldn't be something to be annoyed about. But i am. I feel i live in a world to which i do not correspond, a world of shallowness, and that i am trying to embrace too many things at the same time, constantly trying to 'revolution' myself. Moreover the more i distanciate myself from societal pressures which dictate me what to be and what to do (family, media, school..) the more free and happy i feel. Am i bound to live as a misanthrop? More seriously, i would really appreciate some advice from you if you have been through this and how you have managed to find an internal balance.
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why do i feel more complete than others? am i different? - Juli - 02-19-2014 12:45 PM
[] - Fake Genius - 02-19-2014, 12:48 PM
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