Please help don't judge me please this is real bad ugh.?

[Horsense]

Come clean and apologize sincerely to each of them.

Some may decide to ditch you, but others may choose not to.
They deserve to be able to make that choice for themselves.

Grow up . . .
Start doing things the right way now, or your entire life will become
one big twisted mess that will overwhelm you even more than you feel overwhelmed now!

Life isn't about oing the easiest thing all the time, its about learning how to avoid making difficult situations for ourselves & others to get involved in. . . .

If you realized that you'd made a wrong turn while driving, and found yourself entering a freeway on a freeway exit, wouldn't you pull off & turn around as soon as possible . . . ? Of course you would! Why? Because it would make absolutely no sense to continue on as you are, and every sense to correct your mistake.

So, start figuring out how you'll go about it . . .
the simpler the better, but don't be rude about it . . . be sincere, from the heart

IF necessary you can start 'role play' all over again . . . as yourself, this time.
(You don't have to tell or show them who you really are.
Just explain what happened, and that you are stopping the charade.)

These articles can help you in your endeavor:

"Why Is It So Hard to Apologize?"
http://wol.jw.org/en/wol/d/r1/lp-e/2002800

"Apologizing—A Key to Making Peace"
http://wol.jw.org/en/wol/d/r1/lp-e/2002801