Will I ever get a girlfriend being like this?

[Ethan]

A senior in high school, I have always been a reserved and independent person socially. I talk to many people, including girls, in school, but hardly anyone outside of school. I am in several AP classes and spend most of my time doing work for those classes, playing golf for my school and baseball for my township, and the rest of my time is spent with family/watching sports/surfing the Internet because those are the things I enjoy doing. I don't really hang out with friends outside of school.

I am starting to think that girls are just not attracted to my social personality and that's why I can't get into a relationship with a girl. I have talked to several as friends, in school and where I work, but nothing ever gets past a basic friendship. They always go for the guys who are more socially appealing...in other words, those who go out and party and do things every night.

Along with my personality, it's difficult for me to initiate conversation and go about a discussion or engagement without fearing that I will do something awkward or embarrassing. I've tried to talk more to them about various things, but I don't feel right doing it. It's just not who I am. I'm not a big social person. I feel like I'm pretending to be something different in order to try to get a girl. I much prefer for the girl to take control of things and lead the way. I am more reserved and independent.

I have several girls that I consider friends; I talk to them in school and occasionally through text and online social media...but even that's only about school things at the farthest.

Are there girls out there who would want a relationship with me?