Anyway I can have a more positive future outlook?

[Rick]

become a health nut. sometimes depression is just slightly poor health. try new things out, I know that sounds cliché but youll be surprised to find what you never knew you liked. Im guessing you may be left handed (from your math and social skills), for the math I highly recommend reteaching yourself all math from 1 plus 1 to your highest level and you will find one area you were weak in. for social skills, read A LOT and try to initiate conversations with the opposite sex even if you have to go door to door pretending to sell chocolate bars, once the nervousness goes away then youre set. look up ways to make money on the side. I use to make 70 bucks a day mowing lawns for 10 a pop when I was 13, now I could make a couple hundred if I wanted to.