Really fed up and needs help?

[EvilAMMO]

Hi Louise. No matter how alone you may feel just know that you are NEVER alone - there's always someone out there who cares and will be willing to listen. The one person though who can make the biggest difference to you is YOU. You have already done this by posting here and reaching out for some advice and this is a positive thing. With so much stuff going on it does not surprise me you are feeling so depressed and this is a dangerous thing. Have you ever thought about talking to a counsellor about a lot of these things you mentioned (especially what happen to you in the past). I know it seems scary or may even seem like I'm being insulting (which I assure you I'm not) but a counsellor will be able to help you far more by being able to help you overcome these things and help you crawl out of this depression. Try and socialise by going out to events and such and making new friends - I can guarantee you that even though it seems everyone hates you that will certainly not be the case. So you have no hobbies - find something you like doing and do it, that's an instant hobby for you and it will help you focus your mind on something positive. Go back to college to study - it's a great way to build a social circle as well as gain grades. There's a lot going on and if you try and tackle it all in one go it will seem very overwhelming to anyone but if you chip away at these things one at a time you will find it a lot easier. If you need someone to talk to I am always around and more than happy to listen and try help (ammoiori@gmail.com or contact me through yahoo) and I have also included a link to a group on Facebook that you can join if you have facebook. It's run by someone I know and everyone on there are there for each other without judging.

Don't give up on yourself - things can change for the better.