I wish I was innocent but I'm really a bad person?

[Cat44]

I hear your pain. your bullying is an ends to a means for you. you have nothing else right now to medicate your own pain. it is sad to hear that your only support was taken away from you. right now you are it.

you mother is wrong and your dad is a dead-beat. but you are so not alone.

I think you should share your story with the following research link. there are very few examples from cyber bullies and yours would sure give insight into the sad dark world about them. if people understood your point of view it could really help victims of it to understand you and how their hurtful behavior plays a part in the whole thing. i'm not making excuses for you, but I commend you for your honesty and find your story very interesting and feel a great deal of empathy for you.

try this site and share your story. it is all confidential and you cannot be prosecuted for anything. you will be helping a lot of people if you decide to do it!

http://www.cyberbullying.us/shareyourstory.php

here are some more links that can help you connect with others

http://www.friendsandfamilyforum.com/sho...php?t=5306

http://randomizing.hubpages.com/hub/Why-...-so-lonely

http://teenlineonline.org/

1-800-SUICIDE
(1-800-784-2433)
or
1-800-273-TALK
(1-800-273-8255)
or
Text Telephone:
1-800-799-4TTY
(1-800-799-4889

don't give up. for now, be your own best friend. soon enough you will be old enough to leave your abusive home and have a better life. study hard as best you can to get good grades so you can graduate and be able to find work and not have to sell yourself. so what if you work at a fast food joint for a while. if you do and you like it, work your way up the ladder to become a supervisor. hang in there. ask Jesus to help you. I will pray for you too.