I'm being bullied and accused of things I didn't even do?

[lisa]

This is kinda long but I hope someone reads it all. :\ I moved from NYC to Dallas a year ago, and that was the time I entered high school as well. I was really nervous at first but I got along with almost everybody quickly. A couple months after freshmen year started, I began hanging out with the ''wrong'' people, but at that time I found them very intriguing and fun to be around with. A couple people joked around and started to call me a ''drug addict'' and of course when other people heard thought they were serious. So my reputation went from that new kid to the drug addict.

A lot of people have told me that I got more friends then they will ever have in their life, (legit words), and for me I just socialize with a lot of people. I also got called dumb for being so friendly because now it got me into a lot of mess.

As the months passed by, I met new people and hung around other groups. Also, when i entered high school, this was when guys started to actually notice me. So all of freshman year, I've had many so called 'things' here in Dallas, with guys. Like we never got ''official''. Because of that many people started to call me a hoe and a sl*t. I don't see a problem with how a single girl can go talk to another single guy, it's not like I'm homewrecking a relationship. Girls started to talk about me even more as I got more attention from boys. I don't dress provocatively, nor do I act like it. For the whole freshmen year, it didn't really bother me about people talking mess, I just ignored it.

During the summer I got into beef with this one girl from another school and LITERALLY ALL THE ASIANS from my school got on her side and then started to beef with me also, when they had NOTHING to do with it. Instead of being mature and talking about it privately with me, they decided to bring it upon to Twitter to share to everyone the news. It got so bad I had to delete my Twitter. From that time on, I felt like I lost most of my friends and felt like the weakest girl EVER. So many people started to talk mess about me on Twitter. The only people who stayed by my side was my two closest friends now.

As for sophomore year now, people think its funny that even though I'm Asian I don't associate with any of the Asians from my school. The Asians are always trying to start something with me, always bringing me into things. They can sure talk a lot online, but in life they won't confront me. Most of them mug me, and I just smile because I don't know what else to do lol. When I talk to new people, they actually ask me if I slept with this boy or this boy because that's what they heard. About 5 guys claimed to have slept with me, and I don't know 3 of them! And none of it is true at all!

One day, while I was rehearsing for a play, some girl just told me that A LOT of people hate me, and she brought up a friend who I thought was a good one who supposedly talks mess about me often. That was the breaking point for me, and I broke down there. I feel really dumb where I can't tell who my good friends are and who's not. Guys who talk to me now only want to talk and hang out so they can get something back in return which I'm not that type of person to do that. Girls are so judgmental at first that it's so difficult for me to even approach them without them mugging me.

I don't think I've done anything wrong. I went from being the innocent new kid, to the big hoe who sleeps with every guy and parties all day, when I rarely even go out. THIS GIRL EVEN TRIED TO FIGHT ME BECAUSE I WAS LOOKING IN HER DIRECTION. Sometimes I hate myself so much and I feel like I am worthless. Everything I do is wrong. I want to move schools and just stop communicating with everyone. I don't feel good in person or in life. I keep getting hurt from people I trust and people I don't even know of.

I have so many problems at home already, and then now at school. Sometimes I get bad thoughts and I don't know what to do now. Out of nowhere I would think about all the bullying and get so butt hurt and start crying. I tried to ignore it before but now I just give up. LIFE SUCKS omg. There are times when I just wanna move back to New York and live the drama free life I've always had.

Thank you for taking your time to read this whoever did. I appreciate it.. x