HELP! I cant stand my wife anymore.?

[jollyspoon845]

She is such a Bitch these days. And lies constantly about little things. For example today when she got home from work she walks in and just walks right past me. Goes right to the bedroom and gets online like she dose everyday. I ask her why is she ignoring me. She says. I said hi when i walked in. Ummm no she didn't. Why lie about that? Then she gets super defensive. Calling me names. Telling me don't start my stuff. Stop acting like a baby. It just goes on and on. She also gets upset over everything she dose. She was cleaning off the stove because it had sugar on it. Ok fine. But she gets so upset over that she calls me names all kinds of stuff. That sugar was not from me. It was hers. It was by the coffee maker. I don't drink coffee. Its as if she looks for a reason to complain or fight with me. She also always says to me. That i do nothing around here. And follows that with. Oh i forgot you cant. You see i have some serious health problems that will eventually end me. so yeah. Sometimes getting up just to go to the bathroom is a challange. And she blames me for me health problems. She always brings it up in every argument as if i got ill intentionally. As if its mu fault i am not well. Everytime she says that i just want to just slap the hell out of her. Its so offensive to me. Its my hot button. She knows this too. Its like she gets a kick out of ticking me off. And when i do lose it and get real mad she starts laughing at me. She thinks its hilarious. Oh man dose that ever piss me off. When she dose that every bone in my body wants to bash her head in. WTF is her problem? We stopped being intament almost a year ago. I bring it up she always says. She dosent want to do anything like that with me or anybody else. Which i dont belive. And the fact that she makes a point to say not with anybody else makes me think she is guilty of something. All she dose everyday is come home after work, immediatly jump on her comouter and i dont see her again untill bedtime. And if i try to talk to her at all its always an argument similar in nature to what i mentioned above. She acts like she hates my very presence. She says no, she says she loves me and wouldnt be here if she didnt. But. Her actions are speaking louder then her words. I don't believe her when she says she loves me. She is so bitter, its gotten to the point that if she didnt come home from work one day i wouldnt even care. My health issues force me to rely on her. So i am stuck here. If i wanted to walk away from this i couldn't. If i did i would be homeless because i am not able to work. But at this point i am starting to feel as if living homeless on the streets wouldnt be as bad as living here with this bitter woman. She has also turned my family against me as well. They love her to death. I haven't seen my friends in years. They don't come around because they don't want to be around her. Her own parents don't even want anything to do with her. What is her problem? I want out of this. I cant stand her. But like i said with my health issues i am stuck here. My only options are live here with this bitch or take my chances on the street. And with my poor health i doubt i would last long on the street. But i still think it would be happier then i would be if i stay here. What can i do? I have no way out. I need some advise. Got any ideas?? And yes we did the marriage counseling thing. It actually made it worse. I am just done with this. I want out. I am just way to dependent on this woman to just walk away. Like i said before. My health problems are going to end me. The doctors say maybe a year or so. I don't want to spend what time i have left like this. Got any advise?