why do i torture myself?

[honey]

Block him on Facebook and any other forms of social media--all it does is prolong the pain. You need to focus on yourself to finish healing. Take a break from online for a few days or weeks, put down the electronic devices, and go enjoy the world and what it has to offer.

Consider taking up a new hobby, volunteering time at a homeless shelter, start walking/exercising more, form a book club in your neighborhood, etc. Just distract yourself with interesting things and it'll help in the long run, and expand your horizons. Best of luck!