I'm having ethnic problems? D:?

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I never really cared or noticed that skin color was so important until I started understanding society now a days . ( if that makes sense to you.) I'm a 14 year old girl . I'm black , but I'm not dark . I'm a Carmel color kind of . I feel like to be pretty or beautiful I need to be lighter . If you have social networks , all the time you see beautiful girls but they're mostly white . For instance , Tumblr Girls ! I rarely ever see a black tumblr girl ! My bestfriend is white , blond hair , blue eyes . Yeah you get the picture . Every single guy loves her ! It lowers my self esteem so much . Society makes white people look good with their star bucks and them automatically being rich while black people are just dumb stupid ugly and all they eat is fried chicken ! Ugh it kills me !! I feel like most guys don't like girls darker than them . There's so much more I have to say but not enough space lol . But can someone please help me to feel beautiful . Maybe white people are just better.