Why Cant I Get a Girlfriend? :(?

[Connor]

Hi everyone as you know its valentines day and well theres this girl I had been talking to for a while and I really had started to develop feelings for her and we'd been texting and stuff. Yesterday I went to Walmart and did a little bit of valentines shopping for her and my mother and today I gave it to her at lunch in school and shes was very happy and thankful for me doing it and gave me a hug and blah blah, and after 6th period I caught her in the hallway and asked her what she was doing over the weekend and she was like ehh I don't know I might have to go to a basketball game but ill text you, and I said well ok if you ever wanna go see a movie with me or something let me know Id really like to, and she said ok real nice and sweet so I thought that meant I was gonna have a chance and could possibly get closer to her. Well about 2 hours ago she started texting me again and about 4 texts into the convo she said, Connor it was really sweet for you to get me these things and I'm glad you thought of me but I just want to make sure your not taking this the wrong way because I just see you as a good friend, and right then and there its like I was shot up with a needle of depression and I started feeling really queezy and sad almost like I could cry. I told her I understood and that its ok (on my part it really wasn't) and that we could still be friends. She said you never embarrassed me or anything I just didn't want you to possibly get too far before I told you that because I didn't want to hurt you, Im very sorry, so I said its ok no hard feelings (which there really were on my part) and she said I hope this doesn't taint or spoil our friendship or anything cuz I still would love to be your friend, I said no its all good, and I stopped talking shortly after that. My problem is, Why cant I find love, or someone who's right for me. It pains me so much because I'm 17 and I've never had a girlfriend before and today ended in awful pity. I'm not mad at her for any of this because I know it was gonna be hard for her to say that cuz I'm sure she knew I had strong feelings for her and I still care about her to a certain extent but what I want to know is, Does a guy have to be hot and cute to get a girlfriend because I'm a very sweet caring guy, and I show courtesy to others. I don't break the law, I don't smoke, I don't dip, I don't judge and exclude others just because others do and yet the people who do these things seem to be like chick magnets. I DONT GET IT!!!! WHY!! WHY!! WHY!! I"m so tore up right now I could cry. I try to ignore love and say that I'll find it one day once I get out of high school but you have no idea how hard that is when your surrounded by couples, mooshy gooshy love birds at school, on instagram, posting about it on facebook, and all these couples are probably out having the time of their life at the movies or a nice dinner on valentines day, and I'm sitting here lonely and unwanted in my room dropping tears over my keyboard. Love, it always catches back up to me and I cant get away from it. The only thing I can do to try to keep myself positive is to tell my self, well at least I had the guts and balls to try. I've thought about home schooling many times becuz I see that as the only way to get away from it but I don't want to get super lonely and that would make it even worse for me. All the girls that I am attracted to are taken or are already talking to a guy that they like, so I'm screwed there, so I don't feel like I have much left of a chance to move on and find someone else as long as I'm in high school, Ive started to tear up now so Im gonna wrap this up. I just want some help and advice that's all because I have no other options to choose and this is the only thing I seem to have to fall back on. Please nothing mean, sarcastic, or crude in your answers, and thank you!