I can't stand living in this house with abuse?

[Jessy M.]

I was working tonight and I can't leave until I finish attending customers when im going to walk out in front of everyone that works with me he he humiliated me yelling and making hand gestures. I'm tired of living in this house all my life I would always have to live with my dads abuse cause he was the " bread winner " I'd always see him drunk or drugs. I'd had to live with his insults and threats. I'm 19 I work but idk if I make enough to live on my own i make between $300 to $400 I was thinking I would move into a motel. And then later on attend school maybe get some financial help. I don't even know I've gotten to the point where In begging to have suicide thoughts again. I'm so tired of this really. Idk what to do. I really just wanna be away from all my family all they are is drama. What can I do where should I go?