Should I just end it all?

[bethany]

Suicide is never the answer. I had the exact same feelings as you did, but this will pass, I promise you. There was a point where I had literally no friends, I was failing school and had the same thoughts. But things are different. Being a teenager is honestly awful, but you're not a teenager forever. I urge to speak to someone you trust about this (a teacher, parent/guardian, a friend). If you can't then I ask you to call one of these free and confidential hotlines/organisations :

Free and Confidential Counseling
In the United States
Live Chats: crisischat.org (2pm-2am ET) or imalive.org
National Eating Disorders Association or 1–800–931–2237
S.A.F.E. Alternatives for Stopping Self Abuse or 1–800-DONT-CUT (366–8288)
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline or 1–800–273-TALK (8255) or en Espanol
The Trevor Project (LGBT crisis intervention) or 1-866-488-7386
Rape Abuse & Incest National Network or 800-656-HOPE (4673)
Australia
Lifeline Australia or 13 11 14
Brazil
CVV or 141
Chile
Teléfono de la Esperanza or (00 56 42) 22 12 00
France
S.O.S Amitié
Germany
Telefonseelsorge or 0800 111 0 111 (or 222)
Japan
TELL Tokyo Lifeline in English/Japanese or 03-5774-0992 (English)
Spain
Teléfono de la Esperanza or 902500002
UK
The Samaritans or 08457 90 90 90
Other countries
Befrienders Worldwide
International Association for Suicide Prevention - find your nearest crisis center
Unsuicide - online suicide help directory
To Write Love on Her Arms
Half of Us
Love is Louder
Self Injury Foundation
Please contact somebody and tell them how you're feeling and seek professional help.