motivation to live ?

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When i go to bed every night i wish i would not wake up in the morning. Life is too difficult so is suicide. I don't have the energy to do either.
I neither have the confidence nor the motivation to lead on with my life.
When all my friends took up jobs, i wasted 2 yrs preparing for stupid b school exams .i failed horribly.for the past year , every morning was a fight. Getting out of the bed required an hr. Long pep talk to myself.
Now am left with failure in all aspects of life social , family , career all in a rutt.
I don't have the confidence to get up again. I just wish this gets over soon. I want to change this miserable life of mine but don't know where to begin or actually how to go through with the days with zero confidence and absolutely no ambition.