What is going on with my ex-gf? (Girls only) ?

[Dmitry]

I'm seeking for some help here. (We're both 19)

I broke up with my Ex- Girlfriend right before christmas. I've been with her for 3 years, we're in love.We've been through alot together including break ups also.
When i broke up with her i was drunk and didn't meant to, we got in some stupid argument and she threw my car keys on the roof at 3 am morning. That was my reason to break up with her because it was just too much to handle at the moment.

After i went home, she blocked me on her social media profiles when i got home. After 2 days she unblocked me. i went to her page and saw picture of her destroying all of my stuff. She messaged my best friend and told him that me and her are not together any more. And she wants him to watch out for me. After that the grieve hit me i started missing her bad. I wrote her a message apologizing and telling her that i didn't mean to break up. Next day she answered me and told that I'm forgiven. She was going in circles about me not listening to her.At the end she told me " past is past and everything happens for a reason". She told me it was final and it's the best for us.

Last night on new years she messaged me saying that she had a good time knowing me and thanked me for the good memories, she told me that she loves me.

i replied her back saying that "Happy new year, wish you the best. Stay safe. I love you".

Her last message is saying "I am you too stay safe love you " (that was on tuesday) i stopped replying after.

Questions are. Is she seriously leaving me? Or just mind games? Do i need to reply? Or just maintain NC? Does she know that i want her back? (i told her that i didn't mean to break up with her)

Please help. i want her back