I have a very strange insecurity… I need someone's opinion on it.?

[cici]

I've never had a secure group of friends. In high school it was just whoever I talked to in class, plus whoever I sat with at lunch. It fluctuated each semester, which was a little rough. In college, I decided to be friendly with everyone, and ended up having lots of friends, but very compartmentalized, like english department friends, church friends, and friends from my dorm who lived near me. Now that I'm out of school it is super hard to have friends, I might still have church friends, or friends I chat with at work or at swing dancing, but I only have a handful of people I feel comfortable with enough to call up and hang out with, which is few and far between and always one on one.

I don't think it's a problem. Having a different style of friendship doesn't make you a loser.