I'm relapsing after leaving a bad relationship. Please help me.?

[Democritus]

Chill for a sec. First of all you are making an emotional decision, which is DANGEROUS. Never make emotional decisions. Disconnect from how you "feel," it doesn't matter. It's just Evolution playing a trick on you, trying to get you to hook back up with her because she was a reproductively beneficial. (Feelings are basically evolutionary instincts, and they have a way of making you do things that are in your best interest to have SEX. That's right, when it comes to Evolution the only thing that matters is sex.) So you need to sit back and think rationally. Would getting back into a relationship be beneficial to you? Judging by your first paragraph the answer seems to be NO, but that anxiety in the pit of your stomach might jump out and say, "YESSS!!!" Don't listen to it, it's not working in your best interest. First thing you need to do is learn to respect yourself, because no self-respecting person would get back into an abusive relationship. Especially one with a cheating girlfriend. I mean, say you married her, how could you even trust that your children would be your own?? Kill that desperation! There are so many other girls out there you'll just be wasting your time and delaying another inevitable heartbreak.