I need help, any advice?

[Straightshooter3]

Advice? Yes. Be patient with yourself. You're a smarter-than-average, adolescent male, and that means pain, depression, suffering, angst, anger and more pain and depression. On the bright side, it last about 1-3 more years and then it's all gravy as long as you're not lame enough to kill yourself while you're waiting to feel better about stuff. If it's too painful to bear, see a professional counselor or therapist and do it immediately.

My guess is that by the time you're a senior in high school, you'll feel better, have a girlfriend, and all that anger and disappointment will pass. Trust me on this, a lot of us go through the exact same thing and we come out the other side better than we thought possible.