I need help, any advice?

[ArmageddonOutahere]

If you are not on an antidepressant , get on one . Go see a doctor.
Do not look back.
I knew some guys just like you in high school and they are now popular and successful and the popular kids in class envy them for their intellect . I went through a similar time because I was pretty shut down in grade school. Then suddenly I was popular and sat at THE table with the snooty people.
You should wait this out. Ask to change schools . Explain your situation . Show your mother this question and let her care for you which is what a mom should be doing with a kid who is having a hard time.
A lot of people do not date anyone significant in high school anyway. Think about the fact that you probably do not have a sexually transmitted infection . So many kids get them so early. Not being diseased is a real plus as you settle down. My best friend ended up with herpes from her first and only boyfriend who she married. Gross. She met him her junior year.
So try to trick yourself into being grateful for something. Write down three things a day you are glad fofor See a therapist . If they don't seem to be helpful , find another one.
Call a suicide hotline. Really . It will get better for you.