Why wouldnt this person forgive me?

[melissa]

i was in a relationship, adored the person and they know i would do anything to make them happy, kiss every inch of their body, it wasnt obsession just adoration lol anyway i broke up with the person over fear of not being good enough plus i listened to a divorce "psychic" older friend who told me i shoulnt be in a realationship, anyway so we was just friends than i started opening up more to him but he seemed to have gotten more distant or at least it was all in my mind, so one day he txt me an i had a bad day an when he said something i didnt like i just was like we shouldnt be friends anymore, i deleted his number on a impulse, now month an half later couldnt get in contact with him, so my friend let me send him a facebook message through her account because i aint got one, i wrote him a beautiful e-mail apologizing an telling him what i learned from this...i learned ALOT, i learned that you will suffer when you are not living your truth and when you dont really love yourself, the truth was i adored him but i let fear ruin it., i love myself and see me as a sweet soul.. i Never really done anything bad to him that could not be forgiven, i forgave him for things he said that hurt, i mostly was good to him and he knows why i had so much fear was because of my disfunctional childhood etc. plus im moving in june to go to school, my question is: WHY WOULDNT HE FORGIVE ME OR AT LEAST WRITE ME? IM MOVING SOON AND HE SUPPOSE TO BE SOMEONE WHO LOVE ME., WOULDNT HE AT LEAST TRY TO TALK TO ME BEFOR I LEFT..WHAT SHOULD I DO? SHOULD I WRITE HIM AGAIN? maybe im looking at the situation in the wrong way