Help me.!! To frnd d way.............?

[Ashim]

Im a boy from a little town, 18 is coming in some days, don't finding any way to live now..............................,......,....... It was a little villege where i spend my early days, and life was always a enjoible thing 2 me, to the litte age , it gives me many things 2 be happy, to make happy, 2 earn 4m life, 2 learn 4m life,....but time never stops 4 any 1, time goes up, and it give a gauzy vale of age,... I over come 4m the ages 13...14....15......but nt in my villege.....primary school ended, high school ended, happily played with d joy of study.....but as i end up my school, it gives me many sub roads, (technical line, ie. Engg. ..., medical .......)but i decieded 2 study more , so i joined a famous college for a B.sc course, but it was a big town, so i was not habituted with all those lot of things in town life, but i never feel bad ,as i learn 4m time, 4m my villege, 4m life it becomes a charming place 4 me, in some days in my college it gives me a lot of friends. .......but what i always feel all d day, unsatisfaction, .......i used 2 come home 4m my college at week end, it was about 30 km 4m my college 2 home, ................but as was alone 4m my school friends , my mind was not filling 4 study, .........but as a rule of 'nature' EXAM came again, it was 2days ago when i was in d calss room , writing on d exam paper.............. ............ Cursh happen, it was a very bad exam 4 me, never feel so bad then ever, it was about 2 months ago priciple called my gurdion 4 givinig a hard talk, after that i prepaired well.....but the hell happend, ..... I dont sleep that nighgt after d exam.......i was thingking about nt 2 live any more, have tried to commited suic...... But .........

This is d 2nd day im sitting in a corner of room with tears............, i lost me........
Im lost .....
Dont finding d way 2 life....

Want 2 end up my jourey of life........4 evr