I can't take this depression anymore?

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I'm a 15 year old guy and I can't take this depression anymore. I'm lonely, and angry. I have friends, but were just not close. I have no friends who are girls. None at all. I'm a total isolated basket case at this point. I kind of avoid girls at school because I'm so shy and afraid they will hate me. My self esteem is so low. I'm afraid everyone will hate me when I talk. I want to turn this thing around. My life is so dark at this point. It's very empty. I feel like there's nothing for me. I'm not suicidal, but sometimes I think I would be happier dead. My main source of depression is girls. I can't talk to them. Their so complicated and I always feel like their not being real with me when I talk to them. Like.. Their being fake toward me with a "he's such a loser" attitude. I'm so different too. I don't use any social media. I think it's stupid.