What is wrong with me? Why am I a writer that can't stop writing and imagining? Why don't I leave my house?

[Elaine M]

There aren't 2,000 agents and publishers in the world. Stop exaggerating.

Look, if your stuff was publishable, you'd have gotten at least 10% feedback even from unsolicited submissions. Take a serious look at your work and fix it. Nobody publishes something that others don't want to read, if you're doing stream of consciousness writing you still have to REWRITE it. Multiple times. That's called the craft of writing.

As for the rest, you need to get some professional therapy. What you're describing is not normal behavior and you can benefit from having someone discuss this with you.