How to honor a friend who has passed?

[CowgirlUp]

I lost a good friend a week ago to suicide. It was completely out of the blue & unexpected & the shock still hasn't worn off. I attended the funeral, but I don't feel like I have closure yet. This is because I had feelings for him but never got the chance to tell him. I had worked with him for over a year & a half & he was just such a great guy. We were very much alike in that we were both 'country'. Unfortunately I had somewhat grown apart from him in the last two to three months before his suicide. I now regret not telling him how I truly felt about him (the reason I hadn't was because I had just ended a long term relationship & wasn't quite ready for anything yet). I enjoyed all the time I got to spend with him. I miss him & his smile. He always wore a cowboy hat & boots to work, just like I did. I wanna get a small tattoo in his honor & leave horse shoe/roses at his grave. Would this be okay even though we weren't 'best' friends & never dated? How can I now "tell" him how I felt?