I don't know what to do help?!?!?

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Hey, I feel the exact same way, I know what you're going through. Maybe you should talk to someone, a school counselor or guidance teacher, because it sounds to me like you're bottling all your frustration up and it'll just get worse and worse if you do that; things get skewed in your own mind, just letting everything off your chest and getting an outside perspective will help enormously. I think you could do with building your confidence, then you won't be an "easy target", as you've described, and people won't pick on you anymore 'cause you'll be giving off this "don't f*** with me" vibe. My so called friends used to just say things like that to me as well, I've never understood why they enjoyed being so nasty and horrible, or what they gained from it. I'd say make some new friends but I know it isn't always that easy. Maybe try doing something outside of school, like a club or something, and make friends that way. Or you could try making new friends online, but obviously be extremely careful if you ever choose to meet up 'cause there are some weirdos out there! As for your friends at school, I think maybe you're taking what they say to heart, and if what they're saying is just mindless nastiness then there's no benefit to that. Don't let them get to you, don't value their opinion so much, don't waste energy on things that aren't important and don't make the effort with people who don't make the effort with you. All that frustration you feel, just let it go, 'cause they're not worth getting angry over, they're not worth your time or your thoughts (and one excellent way of letting go of that frustration would be to talk it through with a therapist, by the way). Try talking to some new people and you'll see that not everyone is as horrible as your friends right now, and that you are liked and are a worthy person. Love yourself, look after yourself, it doesn't matter what other people think. Do things that make you happy. Don't let yourself dwell on their negativity, you don't need that in your life. Chin up!

I'll stop now lol, sorry it's so long, I just felt I could relate so much. Take it from me, things do get better, just take everything one step at a time, and stay positive. If you ever want to chat you can message me. Good luck!

I've sent you an email, here for you if you need to someone to talk to! xx