Will my ex bf ever trust me after repeated drug abuse?

[Amazingbun798]

Please no mean responses I didn't ask for that. So my ex bf and I have been together for 6 years, we have a 16 month old daughter as well. We've been through a lot, he joined the marines, I get pregnant. It was traumatizing in every way, she almost died multiple times. 2 weeks before she was born we had 2 in utero surgurys. Baby came 2weeks later, became healthier everyday. I used drugs when I was younger, but 4 months after I had her I relapsed and lost my job. I got sober and promised to never do this to him again. I have a job again all was settling back in almost a year later and i have a friend on fb that sells Xanax. My ex has been gone all day then home in time to eat and sleep due to some schooling so I've been handle ing everything else to make his load lighter including caring for our 16 month old solo. I've been over whelmed depressed and lonley, so of course I message this "drug dealer" to get a Xanax. I never got it, but my ex read the message the next day. We are now separated, I'm at my mothers and we share custody of our daughter. I love him and am in therapy to deal with my issues, I want to know if I can gain back that trust, im willing to be patient I love him so much and miss him, and would love some reassurance that he might just might, let me back in his heart. I know he is still physically attracted to me he compliments me and flirts, talks about having sex with me. Idk, please help guys!