Help with a guy (ex) starsign?

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He's a pisces sun capricorn moon n I'm a cancer with sagg moon libra rising.

So we liked each other for 5 years always wanted each other but never could, finally we did! But I left someone or him cuz I just wanted him so much it hurt! Anyway I ended it after about 2 months cuz I was so scared and need security and stability n was scared of the unknown.. So I want bac to my ex who is a Gemini And now the pisces has blocked me from everything and obviously doesn't want to speak to me which I understand but I need him, even if it was just as a friend, everyone is saying it's still too soon and he's still hurting, when he had the chance to meet me he said I don't need to see her but is he forcing himself to push away the feelings, all I want to do is explain.. It's been 3 months I quickly made a fb account messaged him I poured my heart n soul out to him but it's gone into his 'others' folder he's been online apparently yet still hasn't read it or blocked me. He said I was like no girl he's ever met, met his family etc sooo is he gone for good? I feel like I've always loved him in my own way