im so fucked right now.?

[john]

You need to understand that you made a mistake. When you are making a relationship with a person what happens in the relationship stays in the relationship. What you do not do, what you never ever do, is to talk about your girl with your buddies. And the reason is because of what has happened to you; you just cannot trust other guys with this kind of information. But you are telling us here just what happened which is a strength and a good first step. We all make mistakes. The important thing is to learn from the mistake and not repeat it.