I'm really depressed and I want to die.......?

[ricis]

Lets keep this clear - Im not gonna write some "pro" tips like - visit a doc or go and socialize. From the way I see this situation - you're need to get attention from somewhere and second you dont feel depressed more like angry at other people for that they "won". By creating fake profiles you run from yourself which complicates everything, you need to stop once and take a good look at yourself. See how do you look on the inside and i dont think you're pathetic more like wandering in the dark. Why do you wait light if you want it? You have to do it for yourself and no shining knight will do. It's up to you - and i know you havent lost hope yet just dramatized some minor things.