I wish I were beautiful not just on the inside,but on the outside, too please help?

[Nikie]

I'm not saying I'm ugly, I'm saying I'm plain.... but I don't want to be a normal, plain person, I want to be out of this world and beautiful... I'm 20 years old, and this is how I look like http://twitter.com/#!/NikieAdoresCena/me...m%2Faq830l ps thats my twitter account lol... anyways, although I've met my hero John Cena from wwe (for those who don't know it stands for World Wrestling Entertainment), and he called me a lovely girl, and my aunt says I could be a model, and my uncle's nickname for me is beautiful, I just think they're all being nice because they're my family. My friends compliment me too, but again, they're just being nice probably.... because well, my brother is known to be very good at flattering and well, when it comes to me, he makes me feel plain instead..... I hate the word beautiful because I'm not beautiful.... I'm just a normal person, I'm not out of this world or anything, and it hurts me because I really, really wish I was... mabie someday, I mean it's odd, my brother is 17 and very charming, but when it comes to me, he never surprizes me with compliments, he just always says negative things to me.... the only time he compliments me is if I actually fish for it, and or ask for it, other than that, he doesn't and when he does, I know he doesn't mean it because he's just telling me what I want to hear... I don't know, mabie I'm being too sensitive I mean I know siblings are different towards eachother but I'm not a guy, I'm a girl and I guess that's why it hurts so much, I don't fish for compliments, my mom says I should just know who I am and be happy but, still, it's nice to feel good, and I don't feel good about myself at all.... can someone help me, please?