Am I on the way to a eating disorder?

[Chloe]

I'm not so sure that you are on the way to an eating disorder but it sounds to me like you have really bad self esteem. I think personally it's quite good that you exercise for extended periods of time and it's always better to know what you are eating so there is no harm in wondering what calories are in things. My advice to you is to just take a deep breath now and then and just relax a little bit. We all come to hate the way that we look sometime in our lives, it's just what we do! don't worry about it so much. You will be fine i am sure