why do i torture myself?

[Miranda Jordan]

I split with my husband about 9 years ago....he left me for my friend and ended up marrying her. I had been married to him for over 20 years. Although I am now glad to be free and have turned out quite well off I still read his facebook page and get very down as he seems to make a big noise about how happy he is.....Why do I torture myself by looking....I know its stupid as I always get down and I have a nice life now myself and travel the world....Is it a case that some urts never go away or what......I see him out and about quite a bit and he always looks very guilty and ill at ease even though aia pretend I have not seen him. Please help someone....I do not want to keep on like this....Cheers guys........ L xxx