My life keeps getting worse feeling hopeless and suicidal?

[Ralph]

Get to your doctor and tell him how you feel. Go to Social Services and tell them you need help till you get a job, this will take some pressure off your Mom. Tell her you plan on paying her back, and mean it. Thank your Grandma for a place to live. I lived in my car in the middle of winter for a couple of weeks till I could get a place. Appreciate what you have, don't even think about what you don't have. Plan ahead for what you need, first, then for what you want, second. If you look for a job while you are depressed, it shows on your face. Would you want to hire someone who looks like that? No. So, before you go for an interveiw, take a deep breath, put on your happy face and smile. When you get the job, you can look like someone crapped in your cereal all you want, but to get the job you have to look like a normal human, happy. Now, stop feeling sorry for yourself.