I want to die?

[Lindsay]

I moved back to Ohio from NY to live with my now ex boyfriend after he kicked me out the first time. He originally kicked me out and sent me packing back to NY because I supposedly had no ambition, couldn't find work, "used him", and got too "comfortable". I ended up going back home, getting on Paxil, after having a nervous breakdown because of him. I went back in December, immediately obtained a decent job, and gave him $100 a week. On Friday, out of the blue, he pulled the same crap again. Only this time, he blamed me for his bad job performance review, saying that the stuff that happened in the past between us "distracted" him. He then started ignoring me, telling me he needed a day to think. Well, Saturday he went off "driving around", came back, and gave me two options: either I can stay and rent out his attic so I can "keep my job", or get the hell out. I obviously didn't react well, since history was repeating itself. He proceeded to inform me that he "loved me, but hasn't been IN love with me for a month". His reasoning for that was I got "too comfortable again", because I would come home from work exhausted and just want to sleep. Long story short, I ended up attempting suicide on Saturday, ended up in the ER, and now I'm sitting at the train station after he threw my bags in the entrance and basically walked away. I want to just end it all. I feel like I've lost the greatest love of my life, and I don't know what happened this time. Please help.